Enthusiasm, joy, acceptance
I am committed, and always have been to these emotions, but it seems the older I get, and the more life weathers me, it takes more and more energy to feel them.
And energy is something I run short of a lot.
So I try to be mindful and aware...always to check myself...a pulse check if you will, am I alive?
Am I living?
Morrie says that you are only living if you are giving. And as odd is it may sound...In all of my giving all day long...some nights I wonder if I am truly giving of myself or just dumb giving.
There is a difference. A big difference.
Morrie is the college professor dying of A.L.S in the play Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. I took River to see the play at B.Y.U this week. It was one of my mother's favorite books, and I thought it would be a great way to deliver a message to River.
ie: Buck up buddy...if Morrie can do this, so can you.
But as we watched the play I was reminded of why mother loved the movie so much...not because it inspired her to buck up... but because it resonated with her undying commitment to love others....
And to really love someone...you have to accept them wherever they are at.
Thus back to the three emotions.
I miss you so much right now, don't give up on me...I am a slow learner.