Pruning my way back home~

Today I chose

Courage~

courage enough

to let my neighbors see my

icky...sticky...kitchen floor

UnApologetically~
Because I am learning that my love for my neighbors
has nothing to do
with my icky...sticky...floor
or my not so clean carpet~
But it has everything to do with my capacity to love
in the face of my own insecurity~

A while ago I was living in a constant state

of stress and chaos.

Mostly inside of my head

My very noisy mind refused to relinquish its control

over my spirit~

over my soul~

I was tired...so painfully tired everyday...

Everything became nothing~

and nothing became everything~

But then I had a conversation with God~

He told me to prune my tree

That I might grow and produce the fruit of

Honesty

peace and priority~

So one branch at a time~

I pruned back the chaos~

I let go of what I could not control~

And put my Ego to rest~

And day by day

God showed me what was real~

What was meaningful

and what wasn't~

I committed to put first things first~

Family, Friends

and time for quite moments 

to reflect...

on Gods plan for me~

I forgot about myself

and rediscovered...

that which I had all along~

Today I had lunch with my mother in law

We ate mexican food 

and complained about health care and

high fructose corn syrup~

I listened to her views on politics and freedom

as Henry played with the chips and salsa

It felt so right to connect in such a simple way to a woman

that has so much to teach me~

It felt so right to be next to her~

Instead of staying home and mourning for my own mother~

Mom keeps telling me to stop waiting for her to

"show up"

Because there are woman all around me

that want to mother me~

So I will listen

I love you Kathy~

Lunch with Dad Tomorrow

I am one blessed woman~