Bad days and Butterflys

I flipped on the computer this morning

to find the results of my not so happy post yesterday.

I was overwhelmed with woman power.

And I will always love you for your

woman power

because it renewed my commitment to

faith

I never want to loose my faith

but somedays I do

and lucky for me

I have you.

This butterfly picture 

flicked on my computer 

from out of nowhere yesterday

It was taken the spring

after my mother died.

I was wearing my mothers ring,

when savannah came and placed

this butterfly on my hand.

I dreamt of a butterfly flying free

the night my mom died

and so did Savannah.

 

Two months later

Garrett and I were hiking the Napali Coast.

it is second only to heaven itself,

with miles of sea cliffs

falling into the ocean

like green waterfalls.

I hadn't told Garrett my butterfly dream.

But as we sat on the cliff to eat lunch,

I did.

Soon his hands and eyes were all over the place

I was annoyed

He isn't listening

Then I put my chin up and saw 

wild flutters around me,

more monarch butterflies than I could count on one hand.

Garrett was crying.

Garrett doesn't cry.

But he knew what I knew.

Mom was saying "hello

I'm healthy and I'm hear for you"

"remember the butterfly"

So yesterday I knew this picture didn't flick on by itself.

I think God opened the door

for a brief second

just like before

to let mother remind  me

once again

of the miricle of the

Butterfly

Now it is time for me to break through this cacoon

and start flying again.