Knowing eyes...

It was a Beautiful weekend,

I had two days in a row with no nausea,

and the best part...

I can now eat applesauce and sherbet

with out my colon confusing it for a porcupine.

Today I woke up determined to go to Sacrament,

There has never been a better time for me

to teach my children where to turn 

when all the leafs fall.

but I must say

It's always quite the dance trying to get our family

to church on time,

and I was having so many issues with my jackypack,

that I almost wondered as I sat down in my seat

with my tubes all tangled around me

if it was really worth the possible risk of 

infection that I was risking.

But then I realized that...

behind us sat my dear friend,

who lost her child this week. She was

Stoic in her faith and in her spirit, but

her swollen eyes carried the burden of her

grief and her faith.

I call them "knowing" eyes.

Knowing eyes are earned like a purple heart

to a brave soldier 

Both an honor and a burden they carry....

The honor of knowing they are on the Lords errand...

and the burden of the price they

paid to see life a new.

In front of us sat a family that lost their child

in another way. 

In in her eyes I saw the "knowing" as well.

I hope I have earned my Knowing eyes,

The eyes that see past the weariness,

arrogance and weakness of others,

I hope my eyes can pierce right through

silly shallow agendas

straight into the heart of those I care about.

So I can love them and serve them

in their language.

I hope I can give my children knowing eyes

and then I remember they must

earn them, through their own heartaches,

the thought makes me sad,

thinking of my children suffering in any way,

I bet it hurts God too.

* Here are some pics from our drive up to Sundance today.

Two blue birds joined us.

I think they were a love note from mom...

My dinner: apple sauce, cucumber slices:)

and Jacky pack...