It was a Beautiful weekend,
I had two days in a row with no nausea,
and the best part...
I can now eat applesauce and sherbet
with out my colon confusing it for a porcupine.
Today I woke up determined to go to Sacrament,
There has never been a better time for me
to teach my children where to turn
when all the leafs fall.
but I must say
It's always quite the dance trying to get our family
to church on time,
and I was having so many issues with my jackypack,
that I almost wondered as I sat down in my seat
with my tubes all tangled around me
if it was really worth the possible risk of
infection that I was risking.
But then I realized that...
behind us sat my dear friend,
who lost her child this week. She was
Stoic in her faith and in her spirit, but
her swollen eyes carried the burden of her
grief and her faith.
I call them "knowing" eyes.
Knowing eyes are earned like a purple heart
to a brave soldier
Both an honor and a burden they carry....
The honor of knowing they are on the Lords errand...
and the burden of the price they
paid to see life a new.
In front of us sat a family that lost their child
in another way.
In in her eyes I saw the "knowing" as well.
I hope I have earned my Knowing eyes,
The eyes that see past the weariness,
arrogance and weakness of others,
I hope my eyes can pierce right through
silly shallow agendas
straight into the heart of those I care about.
So I can love them and serve them
in their language.
I hope I can give my children knowing eyes
and then I remember they must
earn them, through their own heartaches,
the thought makes me sad,
thinking of my children suffering in any way,
I bet it hurts God too.
* Here are some pics from our drive up to Sundance today.
Two blue birds joined us.
I think they were a love note from mom...
My dinner: apple sauce, cucumber slices:)
and Jacky pack...