Change

change: we crave it...we fear it...we love it...we despise it...we search for it, we hide from it.
but in the end we grow from it....or wilt like the flower that won't adjust to the snow.


security: we work our entire life to achieve it, only to find that nothing is secure...we find false security along the way...with friends, families, jobs...but in the end...it all changes.  That is life.  I have lost so many dear family and friends in the past 5 years, that I take no one for granted. But their loss has inspired me to live all the same.  Live in his will.
I think the greatest pursuit, is to find the wisdom to know when to change...and though we have free agency...(yes I do understand this principle)....it is our father in heavan that provides us with opportunities that we need to change...to grow.  (besides, I don't think he wants us wandering in this life with stinky diapers:) 


Garrett called last night.  He had a busy day, he was embraced with leis from people that don't even know him (I love that tradition).  All day he was loved and respected and shown the good old fashioned Hawaiin welcome.

  
They want him to be a director of the new medical facility in Molokai. A facility that will be all inclusive from troubled teens to lonely elders.  It is a beautiful garden with swimming pools and yoga on the beach...even a canoe club.  The biggest store in Molokai is the size of a 711, and the town is smaler than old lehi.  But it is charming, and beautiful.  Molokain's fiercly protect this land from commercial development, and that is why it is so very special...isolated but special.
Anyhow, there are so few of you that read my blog, I thought I would share, It never dawned on me that you could run into Garrett in front of his partners and ask him when he is moving to Molakai...(so please don't bring this up at his office:))))


Sadly, right now we just don't think we can take this change on right now, but we feel that one day we will.  I remember the first time we hiked into the Leper colony, I felt this peace come over me and I knew that we would return one day.  If Garrett took this job,,,he would fly into leper colony 2 two times a week, and I would be his beautiful assistant:)  There is a peace there that I simply can not put into language.

So far the people we have shared this with have completly embraced the idea, others wondered why we hadn't done it yet, and some.,like my sweet mother in law almost cried and begged us not to go....(what about the kids, their, education...I will never see them, they will never know their cousins.) The whole conversation ripped my heart out...How could I hurt the ones I love?  I just have to pray that
if it is expedient for our family to move that hearts will be softened. 

All very valid concerns.  Like I said the other day, my choices affect many.  One day I think it would be the best thing for our family...the next I think it could be the worst.


It's the sliding doors dilema...ever seen that show?  very very scary how our life can change so quickly...If we make the train or miss it by a sliding door.


Perhaps it is a fault of mine...but I do believe God has a plan for everyone...rather or not they choose to follow it is up to their free agency.
Then again...how can we know for sure what his will truly is...I've tried everything...one day yes, one day no.  All I know is that it has worked before.
Do I fear God more than man?
whew.  I wish I could say that 100 percent, but I hate hurting the people I love.

Of course pops made the decision a bit easy on us...after my pleading and puppy dog face, he laughed and told me he would follow me anywhere!
Thanks all for your good advice yesterday...any more seeds of wisdom for me to ponder?
i:e if your picture isn't hear it is because I cant' find one!
For now...please know that I love you all...no matter which way we turn.