It's been said that true courage is staring
fear in the face and going forward anyway.
I have always been fearful of not living up
to God's plan for me. My hearts desire has
been and always will be his will.
But his will can be so confusing at times.
Everyone tells me that his will cannot rob
my free agency. That I must choose.
I so get that.
But the choices I make are no longer
my burden alone,the consequences of my
choices affect my children,my marriage
and my whole family in general.
Garrett and I are in the midst
of a grueling decision.
We made this decision once before
and were blessed ten fold.
So many questions.
My heart is flapping
Head is spinning.
I am not getting peace either way.
What do you think?
Tell me your stories...
Perhaps your wisdom will give me clarity.
Have you ever made a decision...a leap
into the dark uncertainty without feeling peace?
Am I not feeling peace, simply because I don't want
this...not right now anyway.
Talk to me.
I leave for Molakai in the morning,
(of course this has NOTHING to do with my decision:)
Song in my head:
I hope you still feel small
when you stand by the ocean
I hope when one door closes
one more door will open
I hope you dance......